To Pimp A Butterfly

Has forever changed the game, at least I hope.

His new album To “Pimp a Butterfly” is something that profoundly touches my soul with every song that penetrates my eardrums. From the vibrations of the funky beats and melodies that he wraps his profane yet deep lyrics over, my ears have eargasms as Outkast would say.  Every song reminds me that rap is poetry. For a moment I was having a hard time remembering that while listening to “artists” like Young Thug and Dej Loaf. His poetic lyrics over true music… music that our parents could vibe to makes my heart feel something inexplicable. I guess it’s the same feeling that music gave Bob Marley giving him the inclination to say “The good thing about music is that when it hits you, you feel no pain” K-Dot hits me hard, he hits that spot inside that I tend to ignore when it comes to my feelings as an African American and the history I know when it comes to this country, the struggles I see my people still going through, the reason behind those struggles and how we need to push through them. What’s beautiful is how he is using his platform for something greater than the mind numbing hits that infest our radios. He has found a way to express these woes of being black in America in such an intelligent way that every time I listen to a song I uncover yet another layer… If that makes sense. It’s one thing to rant about your feelings and put them all out there blunt and to the point then find a beat to go with it but it’s another to put those feeling in a form that needs to be evaluated, pondered, studied… that’s poetry, that’s art, that’s To Pimp a Butterfly.

“I want you to get angry — I want you to get happy,” he said. “I want you to feel disgusted. I want you to feel uncomfortable.” – Kendrick Lamar

This is not a formal review of the album I honestly have some deep feelings about his music and I felt like I really needed to write this down. I don’t feel this way about albums often… matter of fact I put this up there with “The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill” which is pretty damn great. So if you have not purchased “To Pimp a Butterfly” or “The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill” please get both and have your life changed forever.

If you are looking for review I like this one from the NY Times.

Peace and Love,

Mo

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I’m DONE Son

I’m a perfectionist… Actually no, I’m super competitive. It’s not that I have to be perfect at everything I just have to be the best at it, or at least a top contender. I’ve always been this way. I remember my god-sisters knew how to draw a heart before me and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t draw a heart. I cried for like 3 hours. I probably woke up the next morning and was still upset thinking to myself “I’m never going to be able to draw a heart.” I would get mad at my mom when she would color better than me. When I was in high school one of my best friends always had the best most creative projects. (She had an advantage since her mom is a teacher and had a ton of craft supplies.) My friend never knew it but I would get really upset when her projects were better and more creative than mine. I quit band when I realized first chair was out of reach. I cried for a week (or two) after we lost state my junior year. Because I’m so competitive, I must add that we won my senior year. I mean the list goes on and on. And honestly the fact that I’m 24 and I still remember not being able to draw a heart like my god-sisters when I was maybe 6ish says it all.

I hate to say it but, I’m still like this; which is good and bad. I hate losing so much so that if I feel like I may lose I tend to clip my wings before I fly so I can save myself from failure or not being up to par with those I look up to. It’s so stupid. I often times look up people’s beginnings to give myself encouragement, to remind myself that people don’t just start off great but they consistently work to get to where they are now.

I have this problem with blogging/writing/social media. I see these successful bloggers I read their writing and admire their blogs/vlogs/lifestyles deep down knowing that I could do the same. But instead of actually doing it I think to myself. “but I don’t have a really nice website design.” “but I don’t have a photographer to take really nice pictures of me.” “but I don’t have a super expensive camera and high-tech software to make videos with.” You see what I do? Instead of taking advantage of what I do have just to get started I focus on the things I don’t have. I’m 99% sure I make these excuses because I low key want my stuff to be the best. The more I write the dumber this sounds. And that’s the biggest disappointment… I KNOW HOW DUMB THIS IS!

At this point I simply can’t hold this in any longer. I do feel like God is continuously pushing me to use my gifts. I for one have to realize them and have confidence in them then use them. God has given me everything that probably more than I need to at the least, start. The gun has sounded yet I’m still in the starting blocks while everyone else is making their way to the finish line.

Below are links to a few of my favorite blogs. However, I went to their archives and found some of their earlier posts. The posts not long after their inception. And yet, I’m looking at what their blogs have blossomed into today. So, I’m done. I’m done with doubting myself, thinking that I’m not up to par, and competing in this non-existent competition.

http://www.theblondesalad.com/2009/10/feeling-nerd.html

http://galadarling.com/article/daily-outfit-28th-february-2008/

http://www.refinery29.com/nolita-with-emma-fletcher

Peace and Love,

Mo

WHITEWASHED

Something that I think is fantastic is the “body acceptance” movement. I see woman with so many different body types loving who they see in the mirror. For too long it was about fitting into a size 2 (0 if you’re really special) having thigh gap and a distinct collar bone… and in some places like the never – ending abyss known as Tumblr, and as far as I’ve seen, New York Fashion Week, these specifics still matter. Now I understand fitting into sample sizes and the way the clothes show on those extremely thin models, I understand why designers like Michael Kors and Donna Karen don’t have plus size or hell, regular human size models and their demographic. What I don’t understand however, is the lack of color.

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Disappointed does not describe how I feel regarding the fact that it is 2015 and these designers have a model cast that is 96.5% White. The other 3.5% consist of one maybe two African American models, an Asian model and possibly a racially ambiguous model. (The extra .5% is cushion for the visibly White models who claim to have Native American) In the fashion world these designers like DKNY, Marc Jacobs and Ralph Lauren along with editors like Anna Wintour, are what the Academy is Hollywood. They create the fashion and beauty trends and we follow their lead. So when I look at what they say is beautiful, the lack of people who look like me and have hair like mine can become frustrating to say the least.

Let me highlight the fact that I’m not only speaking about my race but all races. I would adore seeing Latina, Indian, Native American and Middle Eastern models WERKing down a runway. And no one can convince me that there are not women of those ethnicities out there that can fit into the sample sizes and are attending casting calls. The real kicker though, is that these designers want women of all races to buy their products. They, by all means, are selling to the masses… so why not represent them all in their shows?

I’m not sure when or how this diversity problem in the fashion world will dissipate and dissolve but I hope someone has a major realization and starts a revolution.

For now, I can simply bring it up for discussion.

 

Peace and Love,

Mo

 

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Two Thousand and Fifteen

So I was debating on what my first post of the new year would be… A deep spiritual post about how I’m growing and how you should grow with me, or a rant about how people need to stop trying to press the restart button only on 1/1/20__, perhaps an all time favorites and things/products I’m excited to try this year, or a list of randomness.

I’m going with the list of randomness

you’re welcome.

  • Happy New Year!
  • I hope in your efforts/desires/goals to change or grow from who you were last year, you didn’t do the same thing you did 1/1/2014 to welcome this year 🙂
  • If you did that’s okay.
  • I plan on still making an all time favorites video and I will more than likely do monthly favs… maybe quarterly favs finding new things every month might be a little tough.
  • I’m a Mary Kay Beauty Consultant. I’m pretty excited about it. I’m new at it but have some unconventional goals for that journey.
  • If you followed my Journey: Self Worth series. I’m picking it back up. There were a lot of people who benefited from it and I kinda just stopped… not cool.
  • This is super cliche but… I’m going to work out more. This little stomach pudge has been hanging out with me long enough.
  • Am I the only one who just became obsessed with Refinery29?? If you don’t know what i’m talking about, don’t even finish this list, just go straight to their website.
  • It’s 2015 and I still miss college.
  • … but not enough to enroll in any classes again.
  • My husband and I got a new car! It’s an 08 Honda Accord and his name is Si… I love him.
  • I think I love him because of the testimony behind it. I will share it when God says it’s time… I have a feeling that He’s not finished with our season of blessings.
  • Speaking of a blessing, if you are in the Atlanta area do yourself a favor and check out the Gathering Oasis. This church is filled with young adults who are radicals for Christ. Cornelius and his wife Heather are amazing teachers and have helped my husband and me grow from the short time that we’ve been attending.
  • My husband’s name is Moses for those of you who don’t know me and my life.
  • I probably won’t speak much of my personal life or post a ton of pics of us… that gesture, insinuates nothing lol
  • I’m going to start a new youtube channel.. this will probably be like my 5th channel either way this will be the last one created and it will be in conjunction with this blog. I will give you the name deets soon.
  • I really like this whole list thing. My mind typically works like this, ya know thinking of 20 different things in a matter of 3 minutes. Bullet points disguise me sporadic mind.
  • It’s like I have a pretzel in my head.
  • Instagram isn’t real. I hope in 2015 you stop believing that what you see on your phone is what is happening in other people’s lives. People just do a good job of embellishing.
  • Something that resonated with me from church last night… God’s favor in someone else’s life does not mean that there is no favor left for you.
  • I think because of the capitalistic society we live in, we think everything is a competition and that there has to be a winner and a loser. We tend to think that if my friend wins then I lose. It’s wrong and stupid. Everyone can be a winner especially with Christ.
  • Yes I went to Church last night and it was fun. I guess I feel that being with God at the end of the year and the beginning of the year sets a good precedence.
  • If there is anything I hope for this year is to touch others. To continue to allow God to soften my heart. To step out on faith and be consistent with any and everything that I do.
  • and to win the lotto (even though I don’t buy lotto tickets)

Peace and Love

Morgan

All I Want for Christmas is…

TEN MILLLIIIONNN DOLLARS!

I’m pretty serious about that request but if I must be realistic *rolls eyes* here’s a list of what I’m hopeful for.

{side note: This post seems really late…. except it’s not seeing as how Christmas has literally crept up on me and I just really figured out what I could honestly say I want.}

First. I really want those who claim to be believers and follow Christ to get back to what this season is all about. There are so many things I have to be grateful for that it’s hard for me to say that I need these things or that what I have isn’t enough. My brother or sister in Christ reading this, I hope you have the same feelings and if not I pray that God softens your heart and shows His face to you.

Okay here we go!

Mary Kay Skinvigorate cleansing brush. Studies show that cleansing brushes remove 60% more dirt, oil and makeup from your face than your hands do. I ultimately really want to work on my skin in 2015 so I can truly wake up FLAWLESS.

An Epilator. If you haven’t heard about this rapidly tweezing painful yet worth it device, now is when you should probably go look it up. (on YouTube so you can see it in action)

A Remington Curling Wand. I don’t put any heat on my hair. However, this wand (after watching a multitude of YouTube videos) will allow me to switch up the type of definition without having to apply a ton of heat to my hair as I would if I were trying to get my hair straight. Truthfully I’m kind of bored with my hair and I need something different before I chop it off or slap a relaxer in it!

Nike Free Runs of New Balance ( I can’t decide) After playing softball at FSU I have been blessed with more athletic shoes than I can wear at one time that’s for sure. I actually want these sneakers for casual wear. I know I’m not the only one who has seen the athletica/femme outfits. Click these links and tell me these outfits aren’t cute!

http://thechroniclesofher.blogspot.com/2014/07/the-secret-to-perfect-wardrobe-part-ii.html

http://www.polienne.com/2014/03/nike-free-run.html

http://blog.eleanorsnyc.com/5-midi-skirts-spring-biking/

http://www.refinery29.com/fashion-risks

That’s what I thought. Hella cute! And I’m the queen of throw on and go yet when I get out of the house I always think dang I wish I dressed a little cuter than this. Now I can mix it all up and WAHLAH cute girlyness with some slight risk and a side of comfort = Morgan’s ideal outfit/wardrobe/life.

I kinda want a wig too but I legit wig… like the $300 wigs.. but I waiver on that and my husband claims it may not be “me” I think he just likes the idea of only real hair on his wife’s head.

I hope you all have a Merry Christmas!! If you don’t have deep pockets to give your loved ones the presents you would want them to have you can always give smiles, hugs, laughter, kisses and most importantly love!

Peace and Love

-Mo

Nude is NOT “One Shade Fits All”

I know I’m not the only black woman that gives the stank face whenever magazines or beauty experts talk about the nude pump or nude nail polish to elongate the fingers or the nude lip for a trendy muted face to only have them show colors that end with say the shade cream? You know what, I will even go as far as to say they may show a honey color and call it dark. Either way it leaves us actually dark skin toned women out of the nude loop left to deal with thing noticeably not matching… Like band-aids.

I got to the point of annoyance that I found some things that are nude for black women!

Nail polish: Revlon- Totally Toffee | Aldo- Shy Rose | OPI- Over the Taupe
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Lipstick

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Lingerie: http://nubianskin.com/

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Shoes: http://m.shoedazzle.com/products/TIARA-027-000513-0200?psrc=shop_shoes_pumps

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I hope this helps your beauty and fashion woes or at least sufficed your desperation to be apart of the nude circle.

Peace and Love,
Mo

Pride

The ironic thing about pride is the fact that we don’t even realize when we are being prideful. We don’t see our thoughts and actions as pride but as something on a much smaller scale.

Today after church I was fellowshipping with one of my girlfriends about the sermon. Per usual we confided in one another… Starbucks and Waffle House tend to yield many revelations. She shared with me that my constant need to control things in my life, work, marriage, personal emotions, etc., is a result of being prideful. I know what you’re thinking… “like hell” “what am I supposed to just go with the flow?” “girl bye” so on and so forth. By no means am I saying to just toss things up in the air and let them fall where they may instead THROW everything up to God and let Him handle it all.

I thought I was already doing this until I took a step back and realized how much satisfaction I get when I accomplish and handle things on my own with my own intelligence and my crafty way with words.

Don’t take this literally, of course you should accomplish a multitude of achievements just the ones from God and not strictly for your own personal gain.

I challenge you to take a step back and evaluate yourself. How much of your time and your thoughts are focused on God and feeding His sheep? I will admit, majority of my thoughts are focused on personal gain or what I can do for my husband and his happiness forgetting the fact that if I simply follow God’s direction He will satisfy my spirit, my husband’s spirit and everything else in my life.

Seek God’s face, seek His direction, soften your heart and He will fill your soul with joy, peace and understanding.

 

Peace and Love,

Morgan